BJbear at boltEarlier this week, I had remembered some of the things that I had written in a previous online journal hosted by Bolt.com. I think the one thing that makes it worthe keeping is that it was a time in my life when I had lost faith. I don't think people really understand what that can do to a person that falls back on God to take care of their problems; it was one of the times in my life that I had been struggling with faith to the point that I nearly turned my back on belief. That was a long time ago and since then, I've moved on and deleted most of the stuff in my profile. I've asked the admin there to delete the profile, but after several attempts/pleas and two years, I've nearly given up trying to get it cleared.
I'm half glad that it's still up though for nastalgic reasons. So if you'd like to know about me than just from here, Go to that profile and look through the journal.
In fact, I've googled my own name for sheer entertainment to see what it pulled up and there was a lot there, so go google search "BJbear2001!" I'm also in a face book from OSU, at Daiko's Oekaki, FurryMuck, and Oekaki Potatoe(I think).
FINALS ARE COMING UP! The dreaded week is here! Woe to all Colleges and Universities! Woe, I say! WOE!
I won't be around much this week, or at least I shouldn't be because I am supposed to be studying, but I'll be back later.
My plans for the summer include getting a job at a hospital, possibly taking more classes, and looking into and/or joining the National Guard. I don't have a personal computer, which makes it hard on me sometimes; but I'm hoping with the prospect of having a well-paid job, that I'll be able to buy a good computer so I can stay on top of journals and online group activities. We'll see.
I thank God for the time that He's given me to interact with people that are far from my home. My time at East Central University has made me a lot wiser and I've been pulled out of a spiritual rut over the time. I've mentioned earlier in this entry that I nearly turned away from God. I can't explain in words just how horrible it was to wonder and feel as if I'd been living for nothing. It was a desprate time, but I've got God on the mind all the time again and I'm making repairs on the relationships I have with God, family, and friends.
There's a lot that I could say for a close friend of mine back home, major kudos, but I regret to say that I really don't have the time to dedicate an entry this week. I may make an entry for my friend next week.
Thank you to God for raising me up again! Thank you to all those that pray for me on a daily basis; your thoughts and prayers are deeply appreciated!
*Sings* "You raise me up, so I can climb the mountains! You raise me up so I can walk on stormy seas! I am strong, when I am on your shoulders! You raise me up to more than I can be!.."(Selah-"You Raise Me Up")
Love you God! As I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep; and if I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take! Praise God!
~BJbear~
